May 20, 2011 § 4 Comments
Resistance>Clarity>Hesitation>Fear>Resistance>Clarity> Mooooovement (Ahhhh! Yes!)
I have been flying in circles for the past two weeks. Someone who has completed a yoga training program or a similarly challenging period of personal work, I would love some reassurance that this is normal (is it?). After 9 months of the program and over a solid year of personal excavation, I’ve felt untethered, a little lost. But I’m breaking on through in bits and pieces… This is just a wobble as I steady myself to take off spinning. My practice has regained it’s footing even if the structure is looser at the moment.
And I want to talk more about practice. Lots more. In specifics and generalities and the stuff in between. Here’s a start:
This morning, I awoke to my husband’s alarm which rings a full hour AFTER my morning practice wake-up call. This oops was set in motion early yesterday by skipping the reset of my own alarm – and was ensured by dropping my head on the pillow last night before completing the nightly fail-safe check (Discipline supports you when you aren’t on your game – but only if you follow through). Well, crap. He hit snooze and I laid there for another minute or three before rolling over and heading straight into the next room (Sleep in what you can practice in). Center-Sankalpa-Uttanasana-Sirsasana-Balansana. 10 minutes of sitting. 15 minutes total. (Breathe. Do what you have time for. Don’t skip savasana). I negged on my shower in favor of practice (Make choices – consciously! And keep a freshen-up kit in your desk drawer at work – just in case).
Imperfect maybe…But the intent and effort were true. And without these, practice won’t happen. And without practice, well.
Today was a good day. I was a better me. Spinning. Smiling.
What does your practice look like – on a good day, a rough day, yoga or otherwise?